If you suffer from back pain I don't need to tell you what it does. But after suffering with extreme back pain for nearly 11 years I can surely sympotheis and understand what you are going through both physically and mentally.
I broke my back in two places just lifting something. I heard two snaps like a pencil breaking and felt the immediate pain. Two and a half years later I had a spinal decompression and fusion. I was worse after surgery and the night mare got worse. I know what the term weaping and knashing of teeth means. I want to help you if I can. If it is just having someone to talk to or helping you get through problems that come from the pain. My daily pain on a scale from 1 to 10, would be a 6. A 10 would be passing out from the pain. A 9 would be screaming. So I think you can figure out the rest. Now I'm talking about this type of pain while on strong pain pills. Along with the aching pain comes nerver pain. Nerve pain an be spikes, numbing, fire and sore muscle pain. On top of all that I had to deal with a stabbing pain on my left hip from where they chisled bone off to graft my spine in place. Well I'll tell you that this is just the beginning of it. There is mental problems that develop from long term extreme pain. A feeling of uselessness is one. As a man from my generation you were the provider. So I really have a hard time with that. I also have had no kind of life. I'm very limited on activities and have to decide as I go if I can go do something with my wife or kids. Pain Is always there. There is also problems with being on the drugs.
So how do I deal with all this? Well the answer is not with the doctors. They just look at me and say sorry there is nothing we can do. There is one thing that I know for sure and that is my relationship with God. There first thing I know is that He didn't cause my injury, nor is He testing me to see how I handle it. I know what some are now saying. If God loves me so much why hasn't He healed me? First I can tell that if I didn't believe in Him, I would have been dead long ago. Second His Words says He did heal me at the cross of Jesus. So how come I'm not completely healed? It's me. I simply haven't completely believed Him. Even though I haven't believed I know His love for me sustains me and gives me the confident expectation that I will be completely healed. He encourages my constantly. Hey if you don't want to handle the pain this way, then at least I am here to help you deal with the pain and all those nasty side effects that come with it. Nobody else knows what you going through and they probably don't even care. I've been told I was imaging the pain, told I was lazy and just useing it for an excuss and the list goes on. I look forward to hearing from you.
No comments:
Post a Comment